I've struggled with anxiety for a long time. It's not something I talk about a lot, and I try to hide it the best that I can. I can remember the first time I had a panic attack like it was yesterday. I was laying in my bed getting ready to go to sleep. I had been having trouble falling asleep. as I was trying to go to sleep, and all of a sudden this panic feeling washed over me. I honestly felt like I was dying, and I didn't know what to do.
It was the middle of the night but I ran into my mom's room crying and shaking. She woke up asking what was wrong. I told her what had happened and that I felt like I needed to go to the emergency room. She wrapped me in her arms and I asked her to pray for me. I had never been so scared in my life. She prayed for me and explained to me that I was having a panic attack.For the next couple of months I had more panic attacks, and constantly felt anxious. I didn't want anyone to know because I thought they would think I was insane, which is honestly how I felt.
Sometimes I would have panic attacks because of certain situations. But sometimes I would get them for no reason, like I would be walking in Walmart and suddenly have a panic attack. I would feel like I couldn't breathe and my chest would hurt. This feeling of panic set in and I would just have to stop. I would pray and sing a gospel song and that would usually help it go away.
Even though I knew my mom struggled with anxiety along with other friends and family I still felt alone. I felt helpless like nothing was in my control anymore. I constantly worried about being alone and having a panic attack. I hated feeling helpless, I couldn't sleep and constantly felt anxious.This took a toll on me. I just wanted to feel normal again.
One day I was at church and someone prayed for me. God just gave me this indescribable peace. he reminded me that He is bigger than everything, and that He has never left me and never will. I finally felt normal and better again! I was so happy and joyous I will never forget the feeling of peace knowing he is with me and that I AM NOT ALONE.
I still have panic attacks occasionally and still feel anxious at times. But God has helped me overcome this so much! Even though I still have anxiety I know that I am not alone and that HE IS BIGGER!
I wouldn't wish the feeling of anxiety on anyone. I just really felt lead to write this and have wanted to for a while now. I am so glad that I have finally got to post about it! If you struggle with anxiety or panic attacks I just want you to know that you're not alone! There is hope and peace, I pray that my story has helped you. Even if one person reads this and it helps them in some way, my prayers have been answered and it was worth it!
I love you all so much and if you take the time to read my posts, it means more to me than you will ever know!
Here are some scriptures to help with Anxiety:
1 Peter 5:10 But the God of all grace, who hath called us unto his eternal glory by Christ Jesus, after that ye have suffered a while, make you perfect, stablish, strengthen, settle [you].
1 Peter 5:7
Casting all your care upon him; for he careth for you.
2 Thessalonians 3:16
Now The Lord of peace himself give you peace always by all means. The Lord [be] with you all.
