If you're anything like me than you probably overthink way too much. Seriously it's awful being this way. I will be lying in bed unable to sleep because I'm thinking about something awkward I did or said seven years ago. I honestly think text messages are one of the worst things ever to be invented. Seriously, how are you supposed to tell how someone is saying something or their tone of voice through text!?!?!(And don't even get me started on phone calls)I started to let this take over my life. I was always thinking that everyone hated me and that was one of my worst fears because I want everyone to like me. I once had this awful teacher who for some reason hated me and it really tore me up inside. Everyday I would try to think of some reason that this teacher might have for hating me because I just had to fix it. I tore myself to pieces trying to fix this trying to get her to like me. One day I just had enough and had to be switched out of that class. It broke my heart that someone didn't like me. My Mom would have to ( and still does ) remind me that everyone is not going to like you. If we've ever had a conversation odds are that I've replayed that conversation over in my head 50 times making sure I didn't sound stupid.
Usually when I go out to a public place like for example a restaurant I think to myself "Are people staring at me? Are they talking about what I'm wearing?" And if someone compliments me it's hard for me to take that compliment without thinking things like: "Were they being sarcastic? Were they making fun of me?" I started to see a common theme with all these things, I was trying to change myself for other people. I was so caught up in worrying if people liked me and what they thought of me that I ended up losing myself along the way. I let it keep me from doing certain things and from being myself. I'm not saying that you should just go around doing anything you want without keeping others in my mind but I am saying don't let others hold you back and from living your life for the Lord. I still struggle with overthinking but I've came a long way and here's a couple of things I have learned:
#1 Not everyone that you come across in your life is going to like you and that's just life. I know at times that this can be very hard to deal with and accept but it's something we all have to come across at least once in our lives.
#2 Who are really trying to please? At the end of the day does it really matter if little Bobby down the road likes you or if you are pleasing the Lord and doing his work? We are not living this life for other people, we're not even living this life for ourselves but we're living to glorify him to bring him honor and to praise him everyday.
When I meet new people it's the worst because I beat myself up trying to get them to like me. First impressions tend to stick and it usually terrifies me that I made a bad one. I just recently went on a small trip over the weekend to meet some people I've never met in person before. I literally almost made myself sick worrying over if they were going to like me or not. Just trying to say the right words and not to embarrass myself. Now, thinking back at that it seems kind of silly but it's honestly how I felt. I don't have many talents but one that strongly stands out is the ability for my face to turn red at nothing in a matter of seconds. Honestly you could probably ask me what I had for lunch last week and my face would turn red. The thought of attention makes me want to crawl under a table. I can feel when my face turns red and there is always that one delightful person who has to point out that it's turning red thus making your face turn even more red. I have to remind myself that " Doesn't everyone have their awkward and embarrassing moments? Just maybe some of us more than others *Cough Cough* Cydney ( The girl who once fell out of a booth a Texas Road House ).
If you go through some of these same things than here are a few Great scriptures to help you:
"Have not I commanded thee? Be strong and of a good courage; be not afraid, neither be thou dismayed: for the Lord thy God is with thee whithersoever thou goest." -Joshua 1:9
33 "But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you."
34 Take therefore no thought for the morrow: for the morrow shall take thought for the things of itself. Sufficient unto the day is the evil thereof." - Matthew 6:33-34
I just want to remind you that you are not alone and you never will be! Trust me I've had more than my share of times where I felt completely alone, but we're not! We are Princessess or (Princes) of the One True King! I pray whom ever reads this gets a little something out of this or knows someone that will! Love you guys so Much!
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